MIRACLES ARE BOUND TO HAPPEN, AS WE PROCEED.....not ANY that I am sure of, or aware of....its just that...I want to believe in this idea. am I crazy?phlegmatic?lackadaisical?weird?????????....or is it that I have been betrayed by my own existence? my action are purified of greed, at least I think so....I try to stand tall even when the power of my justice blows me away. I'm not a good writer, nor have I the power to motivate and mutilate the minds of people like mark antony had, had. I am no superstar. not even a significant character. but I always satiate myself by posing myself as a multiplex of talents,and queen of confidence...infrnt of this world, whereas, I am no good than any other ordinary teenager! burdened down with heavy tricks of life, called problems...!TRAUMATIZED? am I?...or is it just a pseudo appearance,I put up...to gain sympathy in the eyes of other fellow sapiens?....well, can I be frank and truthful 4 once?...I've been bluffing, since I started writing this nonsense regarding -my life and 'mere' existence.I KNOW AM DIFFERENT. I've been made 2 believe this...I know every child is special, but I am indeed WEIRD ND FAR AWAY 4M BEING ORDINARY. believe me. I love my life-and cant b depressed over sum incident which has brushed its 'forehead' against mine.I want 2 live life,BREATHE life!....I know cant b freed 4m this jinxed phenomena called life...NOR IS IT, THAT I WANT 2!
MY age guides me that I am right, and I was never and will never be ready 2 back down n defy a challenge! sometimes I am nothing but an obsolete person whom I myself don’t know, and ‘am not able to understand. May be, the blame goes to my age, my aura but I am entangled in my own web,circumnavigating my own mind. Gosh! The way I reflect bout my life is becoming difficult. I don't want to be back in that state, when I had dared 2 fall in love, so I have bashed my stact and yet I am giving way 2 d same old, odd feelings, again. life's a journey not a destination, and we meet different people...whose different charismatic features, wins over us and makes us feel pacified with sum talks and compliments. I take, some time, of...and recall about my past relations, but now.....I play games, I don't know.i have analyzed it,all. and YES, its sum1 I always avoid, the one, I was once angry upon has brought back relief in my veins, for no original power is left in me. I pray, thee......if there is someone, anyone who is divine-guide me, and make me clear in mind and yet again guide me 2 something u like, just 2 give me satisfaction, because salvation, I know, its too much 2 ask for.
MY past relations has burnt and burnt me, with full throttle that itself has never ever thought!!!!I try hard and harder...but I am weak. Seeing this world,
I don’t know why I care bout some, the ones I'd never ever paid attention 2 or even better, I have never ever thought about. I don’t know again, If I am mad, Or mad is this world, But the motive behind everything, Appears the same. happiness? its a mere illusion. And pain? being stuck in this jungle Jim of life, When life itself, Is still lost in smoke pain is a feeling that takes charge of or mind! How one finds out someone, Among these woods, To share the truths, and yet Lie to that" someone", still???!all the feelings flush over my brow, the emotions all appear 2 me as same, running alongside my name.i don't know where I am going 2 find, my that,"some1".i am entitled 2 all d choices....but it was 2oo far 4 me 2 judge n trust my feelings. I don't know again, if I am the fool trying 2 play it cool when a shockwave manages 2 throw me off guard! but still I know one thing. I WILL WAIT ND WAIT ND WAIT. AND ITS A PROMISE not 2 ne1 but my very own. and my WAIT will come 2 b very true sometime, when the pitch blackness of night would b conquered by the dreams of a considerable dreamer.....
